I feel so fulfilled with this learning curve of customising my blog. It has never been a compelling interest of mine to do anything more than a bit of Dreamweaver website design and then it was all tables and boxes - absolutely nothing fancy!

Anyhow I have had a steep lesson over the last 4 weeks into image editing, kerning, favicons, transparencies, css style sheets, php and html. What a mouthful! It was more a case of needing to understand in order to get what I wanted done in a reasonable time frame instead of waiting for hubby. And I use the term understand loosely as much has been trial and error - a semi-logic process.

Now all I have to do is bring the rest of my 40-odd posts across from Blogger - one by one, as they don't support an MT export or any kind of export for that matter. Arggh!





Still quite resistant to the sponsored advertising images featured prolifically on some sites. Yes, I would like to develop a passive income but I want to do so ethically. Much of what I have read about generating revenue is idolatrous. While I am toying with what is termed a 'passive income' internet business it is for a useable product that I have wanted and not found, so I suspect others may too. Wanting something and being prepared to pay for it is at least better than purchasing something that you didn't know that you needed or could get elsewhere for less but you got sucked into the hype.





Saw a property about 5 hours away from here that had several of the features we would be looking for in order to consider moving - rural but close to the beach; 4 bedrooms plus office (although I'd prefer 5-6), single level, not requiring DIY, plenty of land etc. The catch is that its not really the house that is being sold as such its the caretaking of a basic camping ground or better put - a tent site. The house is built on land leased for the camping grounds and is not freehold.

There is no opportunity to grow the business other than full occupancy in the summer months as it has a capped number of sites and capped fees set by a governing body, with a lease that runs out in 2021. It was a bit pricey based on considering it as a business that comes with a caretakers house rather than a house that comes with an 'income'.

Oh well, something will come up. And really it doesn't make much sense to be moving to a remote location if we get to go overseas later this year, as finding tenants/caretakers would be harder in the outlying areas.

I can't figure how we can afford to keep this house and purchase another. It doesn't seem possible but on the other hand it doesn't seem logical to part with it either. Perhaps another few years and some passive incomes later we may be in a position to have a deposit and then it will look feasible. Shame though that it can't be now as I could really do with the support.





Which brings me to the next revelation... I am suffering burnout! Its not that I haven't already realised this and expressed my distress to hubby, but I was reading an article in a parenting magazine yesterday and they described the scenario really clearly - anger at the children, fighting with the spouse etc. I have to admit that is me at the moment. I wish it wasn't.

I asked God, last night, to show me a way out as I am not coping. I am still not sure what it will be, but I need it yesterday. And to top things off we found out tonight that Agate was thwarting our attempts to restrict her diet to 'good' foods by stealing and squirreling away our only container of sweets (including chocolates) that we have in the house. That explains why the effects of the last time she ate something she oughtn't has taken longer to 'wear off' (usually 2-3 days). This is exactly what I don't need added to the strain.

And last night the boys played 'I can't sleep' until about 2 or 3 in the morning, when we finally got them both settled again.

Where does a mother go to resign?





Please Lord, hug me, tell me and show me, its going to be alright.





You will keep in perfect peace

all who trust in you,

all whose thoughts are fixed on you!



Isaiah 26:3 (New Living Translation)