I have been receiving a newsletter from Outside Edge Coaching for a few months now, a life coaching business run by Mike and Laura Ege.  They are a couple who are also learning to 'be', and learning to love their heavenly father anew, outside organised religion.  If you are curious, simply sign up for their "7 Radical Freedoms" series as I did.

About 3 weeks ago they had a light-hearted offer/competition of a months worth of life coaching, for those who had read through the newsletter that far, and would like to email them the reasons why you would like it.

I had considered writing in when I first got the email but I put it off until the day before 'closing' and within 24 hours received the news that I had received 2 weeks life coaching - a runner up prize!

I was excited but still reserved, as I knew not what lay before me but it was an opportunity that I didn't want to miss out on so that overrode my fear!  I had some concern about communicating with Mike, being that he is a guy and all!   So after time zones and schedules were sorted out, I took the leap and gave him a call.

It was really interesting.  He was right that the 1/2 hour passes by so quickly.  I didn't have any qualms talking to him.  He was really gentle, and did not offend!  Its such a short amount of time though to keep on task.  There were many rabbit holes we could have gone down. There was much more I could have said to justify myself or background, but I tried to really focus on what he was saying - like an aphid sucking the life out of a rosebud.

As I said in the previous post I am tired of being limited, of feeling unfulfilled, of my happiness being dependent upon another person. So thats what we talked about.

There were some things that he said that on the surface didn't 'gel' with me but after consideration it was a case of opening myself up to another view of the situation I am in, of using Mike's conversation, questions and comments as a sounding board to refine my perspective and position.  Yes, I know that sounds a little general, but what I am trying to say is that he re-inforced what I had been discovering for myself over the last month or so.

He threw me a curve ball or two and a week later I am still mulling these over.  I feel like a child who has not done their homework as I haven't come up with the 'right' answer.

I have emailed him again since (as unlimited emails are included in their coaching packages) and then had sincere pangs about it for the last few days.  Lo and behold, Mike came back to me today and totally threw me again, backing me 100%.  I am simply not used to this.

I have never met a christian guy like him (I don't mean in a crush-like sense rather a pastoral sense) and I can only assume what makes him different is that he lives in the real world, instead of being so 'heavenly bound he's not earthly good'  like many well-intentioned christian 'counsellors' and 'church leaders' etc.

I can see that where I am at presently is part of the journey to freedom in Christ, of  'living life more abundantly', albeit an un-natural and selfish feeling for me.

I have one more phone call to book in for, but sort of wish that I could check in with Mike, say once per month, especially until I feel that I am living more authentically, that I am the me I was meant to be.